Musings of a mad mother (crazy mad, not angry mad...most of the time, maybe)

Well, I thought I’d post about each one of my children. It seems like lately all I ever do is argue with them, ground them, yell and get really frustrated at EVERYTHING they do. Part of the reason is that, well, I’m human and I’m not perfect. That part, I can only keep trying to improve. Second, our life is so busy right now that I haven’t had a lot of down time and I am hyper sensitive right now and have a lot of stress. This, I can fix. I have to learn to say no, or even more so for me, just not volunteer. I had a big “Aha” moment the other day. I have been running around like crazy for a host of different things combined with feeling completely overwhelmed with Brooklynn. I literally can’t take her anywhere anymore. She is such a handful, well, two handfuls really. It seems like I could use a babysitter on a daily basis. So in the midst of all the stress, frustration and things I needed to do, I realized, my life has changed. I’m not the person I used to be. I used to be able to take on lots of different projects and complete them to perfection and now, I can’t get anything done without great sacrifice and nothing is as perfect as I’d like it to be. I realized that this season of my life should be spent focusing on my family and raising my children. A time will come, all too soon I suspect, that I will once again have more time to devote to outside things. But for now, my season is my family. So after I finish my current commitments, I am going to work on de-stressing and downsizing my life. Well, this is all for now. My next few posts will be devoted to the positive attributes about my kids and why I love them no matter how crazy they make me. TTFN